It’s warmer now
Lean into it
Unfold
In a generous way
Surrender, It’s not meant to be a strife
It’s not meant to be a struggle uphill
Undo, undo
It’s not meant to be a strife
It’s not meant to be a struggle uphill
I’m praying
To be
In a generous mode
The kindness kind
To share me
Listen to Undo by Björk on YouTube.
Venus is in Pisces from April 5th to May 2nd 2022. I very much welcome Venus in Pisces. Venus hasn’t been in the best position since November 2021; traveling through the Saturn ruled signs Capricorn and Aquarius, going through the underworld (a retrograde period and conjunctions with Pluto), going through a struggle with Mars and finally besiegement. Venus will enter calmer waters now. In this article I’ll explore this Venus transit. But first I’ll share some of the mythology behind the constellation Pisces and about Venus in Pisces in general (much may resonate with people who were born with Venus / Moon / Sun / ascendant in Pisces). Then I will go into the Venus in Pisces transit that lasts from April 5th to May 2nd this year. Lastly I’ll share my reasons for the song choice for this article.
The mythology of Pisces
The Pisces constellation is of Babylonian origin. The Babylonians saw it as a pair of fish joined by a cord. The constellation is usually associated with the Greek Aphrodite and Eros, or the Roman Venus and Cupid (mother and son). In the mythology the two tied themselves together with a rope (so they wouldn’t loose each other) and transformed into fish in order to escape the monster Typhon. The star Alpha Piscwium, also known by the traditional name Alrescha (“the cord” in Arabic) marks the knot of the rope. Here follows a brief description of the Greek mythological story related to the constellation or sign of Pisces. There are different versions of this story, and I touch upon a few of these differences.
After the Olympian gods had defeated the Titans and the Giants, Gaia (Mother Earth) coupled with Tartarus (the region and personification of the Underworld where Zeus held the Titans imprisoned, e.k.a. hell). According to the Greek writer Hesiod, Gaia and Tartarus together had Typhon (but according to other sources, Typhon was a son of Hera; but I’m sticking with Hesiod here). Either way, Typhon was the scariest monster the world had ever seen. He was huge, standing on Earth his head would reach the stars. His upper body was that of a man, but his legs consisted of snakes. Typhon had a hundred dragon’s heads, with fire blazing from all his eyes. Typhon also created terrible sounds. Gaia sent Typhon to defeat the gods.
Typhon was willing to destroy everything in his sight and reach, especially the good and the beautiful. The gods were confronted with the challenge of defeating Typhon. The goddess Aphrodite (Venus) and her son Eros (Cupid) together embodied everything beautiful, pure and good. Typhon immediately set his eyes on them and went after them. Aphrodite and Eros aren’t famous for their warrior skills (leave fighting up to Zeus, Ares, Athena, Artemis and others). The only thing that Aphrodite and Eros could do, was fleeing the scene… But there was no escaping this gigantic monster, he would be able to catch up with them in no time.
Thus, in order to become hidden and out of sight and reach of the monster, Aphrodite and Eros called to the water nymphs for help. They jumped into a river. In one version of the myth, two fishes came to the rescue and carried Aphrodite and Eros on their backs to safety. After Typhon was defeated, the two fish were turned into the constellation Pisces so they would be honoured forever. In another version, Aphrodite and Eros turned themselves into fish and tied a rope between them so they wouldn’t lose each other. I personally favour the second telling of the story (also because other gods and goddesses transformed themselves into (land) animals, in order to escape Typhon; so in that way it also makes more sense, and as you’ll read below it also makes the most sense symbolically). Only after Zeus and the other gods had successfully defeated Typhon, Aphrodite and Eros could come back onto land.
In Syrian mythology, the fish were known as Ichthyes. They helped save Ashtarte, a goddess related to the Babylonian Ishtar and Greek Aphrodite, by taking her down the river Euphrates. All in all, the story is similar and the fish deserved to be among the stars in the night sky to shine forever.
Venus and her exaltation in Pisces
Venus is exalted in a water sign. There’s something about Venus and water. Venus was born from water. Saturn/Cronus castrated Uranus and threw his genitals in the Sea, and born from the Sea was Aphrodite/Venus. (Though according to Homer, Aphrodite was born from Zeus and Dione.) The Birth of Venus has been painted by many artists, most known is the painting by Sandro Botticelli. In the mythology of Pisces, Venus turns to the waters for safety. It’s clear that Venus has an affinity with water, even though her domicile signs are related to the elements of earth (Taurus) and air (Libra). In many mystery traditions and schools of philosophy, water is related to the realm of feelings and emotions. The element of earth is related to the physical realm. The element of air is related to the relational realm (communication, exchange between people, understanding and rational structures). In Taurus, Venus is especially equipped at bringing about material and physical beauty, bringing pleasure to the senses. In Taurus, Venus brings connection between people through physical touch. In Libra, Venus is especially equipped at bringing about harmony, peace and understanding between people. In Libra, Venus brings connection between people through conversation. In Pisces, Venus is especially equipped at bringing about compassion, empathy and emotional intimacy / connection. In Pisces, Venus brings connection between people through feeling. Not physical feeling, or rational understanding; we’re talking about connection on a deep emotional level that can’t be put into words, that can maybe put into paintings, and that can at best be put into poems by mystics like Rumi.
Venus is a fierce goddess in her own way. She’s one with strong desires. Several mythological stories show her fierce personality, her cleverness and a strong willed personality. She’s born from the great sky god Uranus that also fathered the Titans. She’s one of the twelve Olympian gods and goddesses. This all says something. But Venus is also soft and delicate… The goddesses of love that came before her, like the Mesopotamian Inanna, were not just fertility and sex goddesses but also warrior goddesses or witches you didn’t want to challenge. The Greeks focused mostly on Venus her beauty, sensuality and fertility; and in the Pisces mythology she and her son had become so delicate, that they needed to hide under water to save themselves from a terrible monster.
Hippies may like to say that we need to fight war with love. Jesus might say we need to turn the other cheek. But love is a delicate thing… Love is like a flower. A flower doesn’t stand a chance against a sword. War isn’t won by flowers. War is won by the military. If the current situation in the world hasn’t taught us that yet… If human history hasn’t taught us that yet… I’m not pro violence at all; but turning the other cheek just isn’t always the best option. The Greeks new that… Venus and Cupid didn’t stand a chance against Typhon. I do believe that love is eternal and that it will sustain no matter what (behind the scenes, or under water); but love doesn’t make humans immortal or protect us against Typhons. I do believe that the Aphrodite archetype is eternal. But that doesn’t mean that Aphrodite herself couldn’t get hurt.
The real world is harsh. Capricorn would say ‘and that’s how it is and we deal with it’. Pisces says ‘but I wish it would be different, and sometimes I just can’t deal with it’. And both perspectives have their own value. We need to deal with it AND we need to imagine a better world.
The sensitivity of Venus is fully accepted and embraced in Pisces. The longing for a different, better, more peaceful and loving world is fully acknowledged by Pisces. Pisces is ruled by the philosopher and mystic Jupiter. When Jupiter welcomes Venus in his home sign, he’s voting for her and her attempts at creating a more loving world. He’s voting for her to bring about empathy and compassion.
I don’t want to say that Venus is always delicate and sensitive as a flower. Because many of her mythological stories show otherwise. And for example, when it comes to astrology, a Venus in Capricorn, Aries or Leo will show itself in a much stronger and fierce way than a Venus in Pisces. Anyways… Venus is, apart from all her other qualities, also sensitive and delicate as a flower.
And as I’m writing this I all of a sudden think back to the fish that I used to have as a kid. I used to have goldfish in a bowl. One day I was cleaning my room, and I accidentally bumped against the bowl and it fell on the floor. I didn’t notice that it had fallen, because I had music playing quite loud. One of my fish had fallen out of the bowl onto the carpet (the other fish was still safe in a little bit of water that was left in the bowl). I don’t know how much time had passed until I had noticed what happened. But when I did notice, my dear goldfish was gasping and fighting for his life. I picked it up from the carpet and the poor little thing actually stuck to the carpet, as I picked it up it lost some of its scrubs. Back in the bowl the poor fish remained alive for another month or two. But it developed a terrible wound; and it eventually died because of it. (I still feel immense guilt about the suffering that I caused my goldfish.)
That day I definitely learned something about Pisces… Fish are so delicate. They can only survive in water. The earth and the air are too harsh. The world where we humans live is too harsh for fish. Our human skin is like a barrier. Our skin is a boundary between outside and inside (it’s no wonder that Capricorn, the sign of boundaries and structures, rules the skin and bones). Most sea creatures, like fish, have much more delicate boundaries. Think jellyfish. Or think crabs that actually need to leave their shells and dissolve from time to time and are utmost vulnerable without their shells. Creatures cannot dissolve on land, nothing will remain of you. We cannot dissolve on earth. We can only dissolve in water. Because water is the most safe container there is (think of embryonic fluid). Water can hold things that have no inherit structure or boundaries. A jellyfish can contain its shape in water, but it loses its shape entirely on land. Pisces actually is the primordial fluid that Aries, the very first sign of the zodiac, is born from. Pisces forms the end of the zodiacal wheel and gives birth to the first sign of the zodiacal wheel.
In water we can become boundary less. In water we can become ONE. Pisces has a reputation for being the most spiritual sign. I personally don’t believe that one sign is more spiritual than another. I think every sign has a spiritual lesson and gift to provide us. But I would say that the mystical experience of becoming one with god / the universe / all / divine love / whatever name you want to give it; is a very Piscean thing… Pisces also has a desire to become one. I see it in my clients with Pisces placements. There’s either a desire for transcendental or spiritual experiences, or a desire and a great ability for intimacy with other human beings. Which also scares them sometimes; because…. what if I loose myself in another person, in drugs or a spiritual practice? (When it comes to drugs like LSD, I think that people with strong fixed placements and strong earth in their chart can handle it best. People with strong Pisces have more trouble with it; they can actually loose themselves. Not saying that they will; but there’s a greater risk. From all signs, Pisces might have the greatest longing for mind altering substances, but not necessarily can handle it the best…)
The real world / the world above water is harsh and fish can’t live in it. People with strong Pisces placements (Sun, Moon, ascendant, Venus) need to escape it from time to time. They experience the world as harsh. They are sensitive to other people’s suffering. They are sensitive to their own suffering. They can’t “just deal with it”; that’s not how they work. That’s not how they are build. You can’t force a fish to live on land; like my little goldfish couldn’t live on my carpet. You can’t force a Pisces to “just deal with it”. But yet, humans with Pisces placements need to do deal with it in some way. Luckily, there are always other placements in a chart to rely on; to be able to live on land. Because we humans aren’t fish. People with strong Pisces placements need to learn how to be able to live on land / live in the harsh real world. They need to learn to handle their own sensitivity and care for themselves. They need to give themselves the room to escape, the need to allow themselves to escape. Hopefully not in drugs, sex and rock and roll. Hopefully in yoga, reading books alone at home, walks in nature, and other hobbies for introverts.
The beauty of having Venus in Pisces (and the ascendant, Sun or Moon in Pisces) is the immense longing for a more beautiful world. Pisces brings us the visionaries, mystics and artists that give us the songs, poems, paintings and novels that we 1) can escape in after a long day of hard work, and 2) help us to believe that better is possible, and 3) thus make us willing to work on a better world. The beauty of Venus in Pisces is the compassion, the crying about other people’s pains and sorrows. Venus in Pisces makes us care. Venus in Pisces can’t look the other way. Venus in Pisces feels other people’s pain deeply. She feels it as if it’s her own wound.
And because she feels these wounds, she also needs to heal herself. Venus in Pisces needs to retreat often. People with strong Pisces placements can’t stay on earth for too long, just like fish they would die simply of existential dread. These people need to swim in the ocean on a regular basis. Which means that they need to retreat from ‘the real world’ into their own ‘escape world’. After having witnessed the wounds of others, they need to be alone and tend to their own wounds. They need to retreat from the real world, the world of the Typhon, and go under water into the world of the water nymphs. They need to drink a glass of alcohol or read a book. They need to cry and listen to sad music that somehow relieves their pain. They need to escape into some fantasy that they create in their mind. They need silence. I love how the world sounds so far away when I’m completely submersed under water in my bath tub….
Even though Pisces is ruled by the great ruler Zeus (Jupiter), who isn’t delicate at all. There’s something delicate about Pisces, that I can only understand when I think of fish and when I think of Venus and her exaltation ‘rulership’ of Pisces.
I’ve seen so often in clients (and in myself…) that people with strong Pisces placements tend to have allergies. Their bodies can’t handle the real world, the real world is too harsh and the body overreacts to it. The Sun is too harsh for my skin, even though I love its warmth. The pollen are too intense for my eyes and nose, even though I think the blossoms in Spring and Summer are beautiful. My digestive system gets upset from pretty much everything, even though I love to eat a variety of foods. My body thinks that mosquito bites are lion attacks, and so on… People with strong Pisces in their chart can have the weirdest chronic allergies or acute, non chronic, sudden skin diseases. Other autoimmune disorders are also common for people with strong Pisces placements. Sometimes they get them later in life. If someone with strong Pisces isn’t overly sensitive physically, they tend to be overly sensitive emotionally or psychologically. And I’m not saying that with judgement. We need sensitive people in this world. I wouldn’t want to live in a world in a world without sensitive people. Because, like I mentioned, those are the people that write the most beautiful poems and those are the people that inspire compassion.
Okay, this article is getting way too long (and there’s still so much that I want to share, lol… this is becoming a Piscean mess).
Back to Venus in Pisces. Venus does so well in Pisces, because water knows no boundaries. The ocean itself has no boundaries. Love can flow everywhere! Thus Venus can loose herself completely in Pisces. Which is why she’s exalted there. Which is also at her own detriment. Venus in Pisces has the ability to give herself away completely. To loose herself completely. And that’s why Venus in Pisces often has so much trouble in love. Venus in Pisces knows that she can loose herself completely. And that’s a scary thing… Because the human ego can’t handle it. The human ego needs to keep itself contained.
People with strong Pisces placements, especially people with Venus in Pisces, need to learn to set boundaries sooner or later in life. They need to learn to not give themselves away. Which can, as I’ve seen in myself and others with this placement, create the opposite reaction of not daring to connect anymore. The Pisces fish has a desire to become one with the ocean. It also needs to swim around freely, it doesn’t want to be caught. Venus in Pisces has trouble setting boundaries in order to protect herself. People with Venus in Pisces sometimes can accept way too much bullshit from others. But Venus in Pisces also doesn’t want to be contained in a net, in someone else’s boundaries. Venus in Pisces can be rather complex!!! Venus in Pisces lovers can be madly intimate, compassionate, all accepting and loving, and the next day they are gone (and at the other side of the ocean). They sometimes need to swim away in order to save themselves. Or they think they need to save themselves… Because just like with the pollen of trees; trees aren’t out to kill us… Venus in Pisces is sensitive to real danger and to imaginary danger. Venus in Pisces needs to realize that not everything in the world is a Typhon.
Okay, after this long story it may seem that there’s little use for Venus in Pisces. Now it seems that she’s just a sensitive thing with too many allergies. So let me remind you: Venus in Pisces is also the one that gives us the poems of Rumi and the archetype that we tap into when we feel compassion and cry for someone else’s pain. Venus in Pisces is the one that doesn’t fall in love with the popular guy with the fancy car or the cheerleader. Venus in Pisces is the one that falls in love with the underdog that reads the philosophy books during lunch breaks. Venus in Pisces sees the world through a different lens, as she looks up to the world from under water… She sees different colours and hears different sounds. And she invites us to go swim in the ocean with her. She provides us the escape when we need it. She provides us divine comfort, when the day to day struggles have become too challenging.
Venus in Pisces in 2022
Venus is in Pisces from April 5th to May 2nd 2022. During this time, Jupiter is also in Pisces. Jupiter is the ruler of Pisces. Having the two benefic planets (the bringers of growth, expansion and abundance) together in Pisces is simply luscious and divine!
This doesn’t mean that all problems in the world will go away. Because, elsewhere in the zodiacal belt are still other forces at work. Next to that; abundance, growth and expansion need to have their limit! We human beings tend to forget that. We always want more… And here we are; the Earth is overpopulated and we’re depriving it from all resources because we always need more. We modern human beings have a very Jupitarian mindset and lifestyle, and not in the good way.
The outer planet Neptune is also in Pisces. Neptune is related to the God of the Sea, by the Greeks known as Poseidon. Neptune dissolves boundaries; which is already a Piscean quality. Neptune is also known to bring confusion and dreams; not always seeing things for what they are (though every now and then Neptune brings the opposite: clarity, as waking up from a dream…). Having Venus, Jupiter and Neptune together in Pisces is good astrology for cocktail parties; it’s not good astrology for dealing with real world issues in a practical and rational manner.
On a personal level; this means that the part of your natal chart that contains Pisces, offers a place of escape and comfort from the part of your natal chart that contains Aquarius (where Mars and Saturn are). One part of life is flowing with ease, while another part of your life is an area of stress. On a global level: a major part of humanity is living in war and poverty, another part of humanity is celebrating the ends of lockdowns and is traveling to luxurious resorts and going to music festivals.
List of dates:
April 5th: Venus enters Pisces
April 14th: Mars enters Pisces
April 27th: Venus conjunct Neptune at 24 degrees Pisces
April 30th: Venus conjunct Jupiter at 27 degrees Pisces
May 2nd: Venus leaves Pisces
On April 30th, when Venus conjuncts Jupiter, there’s also a New Moon in Taurus. This New Moon is actually a Solar Eclipse; and because it is in Taurus, it is under the ruling of Venus. This New Moon for sure comes with a bang. (In case you have the Sun, Moon, Mercury, Venus, Mars, Jupiter, Saturn, ascendant or midheaven) near 27 degrees Pisces; take note. This also counts if you have these placements near 10 degrees of Taurus, Leo, Scorpio or Aquarius; take note. The eclipse on April 30th may be significant for you. I’ll write more about this eclipse in another article on a later day.
On the dates in the list above, certain conjunctions will be exact and be felt most intense by all of us. That’s why I wanted to mention them. But throughout Venus her time in Pisces, these conjunctions are active. Venus and Jupiter together, in the home sign of Jupiter and the exaltation sign of Venus, can be pure magic. It’s more, more and more of love, beauty, pleasure, compassion, art, indulging, parties, etcetera. Expect abundance in the part of your chart that contains Pisces! Neptune adds a certain escapism or dreamlike state to it. Maybe too much of the goodness. We’ll see what we feel like after Venus leaves Pisces and enter Aries (and not that much longer, mid May when Jupiter leaves Pisces too). Venus and Jupiter in Pisces bring the party with the very best wine of the world. But we might need to pay for it on the day after, with a massive hangover. I’m not saying that to hold you back from indulging in the Pisces goodness (whatever it may bring you, depending on your chart); because I think it may actually be good to indulge in that goodness! I’m just saying it to tell you that the goodness may be there temporarily. Lows feel extra low after highs, also when the lows aren’t actually lower. That’s I guess what I want to tell you.
In the list of dates you can also see that Mars will enter Pisces mid April; this will bring some spice to the mix. Which may be positive as it can bring action; not just dreaming about a better world, but actually putting in the action to create it. Venus and Jupiter can be rather laid-back (they’re not necessarily the hard working types). But it may also bring frustration. Fiery goal oriented Mars has trouble navigating his fire in the watery mutable sign of Pisces. It’s like ‘desperately wanting to do something but having no clue what, where, when and how’ (which is of course very frustrating).
My wish for the world is that we can all tap into Venus in Pisces in the upcoming weeks (and long after). That we may be and remain compassionate while we’re faced with stress and uncertainty. That we may continue to believe in love; and that love will always be there, flowing through us, under water, while we’re faced with brutality and modern day Typhons. That we may be and remain able to keep dreaming and envisioning; writing poems and creating other forms of art and that we continue to enjoy the beauty of life and love in life. That we may be inspired to keep working on a better world, one that’s softer and more loving. That we may feel inspired to bring some water to land…
Personal confessions
We are not our Sun sign, we’re not our Venus sign. We’re not a certain house placement, a certain ascendant or a certain north node. We aren’t even a birth chart. We’re human beings, and we’re expressions of our birth charts and these expressions change during our lives. We are multifaceted. And astrology is a language to speak about that.
Growing up as a child I felt like my family dependent heavily on my Capricorn Sun; to carry the weight of the family on my shoulders, to act more mature than I was in years of age, and mostly to not complain and set my own needs and desires aside. It’s not easy to be a child of Saturn, which I think other Capricorn Suns can relate to. It’s also my Capricorn Sun that carried me through some rough shit. And as a kid growing up I felt like my intellectual parents didn’t have a clue what to do with my Taurus ascendant, that had a craving to express itself through dance and creating art, that wanted her own little vegetable garden and that wanted to bake French toast on Wednesday afternoons when there was no school for her friends and sister. I wanted to walk around in dresses and I wanted to collect pillows, stuffed animals and beautiful things, and my mom really didn’t get that. My Aquarius Moon just always made me feel out of place and weird everywhere. My Sagittarius and Aries placements were unknown to me for a long time (except for when I was rollerskating or climbing onto and jumping off stuff); probably because they are hidden away in the 8th and 12th house. I only got to connect with them in a more meaningful way when I got older (and they still take me by surprise). And sometimes I wonder if ‘I really am a Capricorn’; because I never feel successful enough (which probably is a sign that I really am a Capricorn, lol).
My Venus in Pisces placement probably explains why I was heavily in love with Orlando Bloom after watching Lord of the Rings. I could daydream about him for hours. Daydreaming is a skill I’m very gifted in. I have a longing to always escape reality (because reality is so harsh). In my younger years I wanted to become a vampire and escape human life in that way (my fantasies can sometimes be a bit dark). As a teenager I got a little too familiar with alcohol and cigarettes in order to dull the pain of reality. Yoga has been a life saver. Yoga helps me to transcend reality and at the same time ground myself in reality. Though I still have a tendency to fall back in old unhealthy habits from time to time.
We don’t need to have Pisces placements to have that longing, by the way. (And when it comes to signs, Aquarius and Sagittarius also have a tendency to escape reality, but in a different way.) Pisces is just very good at escaping. Pisces has a need for escaping. Anyone with strong Pisces in their chart, knows about this need (and struggles with it).
Anyways, we’re multifaceted beings.
I always felt like the soundtrack of my life was ‘What’s Up’ by the 4 Non Blondes. Maybe it’s my Capricorn Sun + Pallas, and Aquarius Moon. Maybe it’s the family that I grew up in. Maybe it’s the life that I chose to live for a long time. I don’t know. I’ve listened to this song millions of times. I listened to it in my attic room as a teenager, I would listen to it on my Discman while cycling to high school. In my late teenage years / early twenties I would listen to it on my MP3 player while cycling to university classes. I would listen to it when I was home alone and my boyfriend was at work and I would scream along with the lyrics. In my late twenties I would listen to it in my car, driving to and from work, driving on the highway with the volume all turned up. It felt like it was my song. It was my soundtrack. I didn’t find the song particularly beautiful, or inspiring or something like that. I actually didn’t like it. I also wasn’t a 4 Non Blondes fan. But this song just expressed my existential pain so well… For so many years.
Until, one day, it didn’t anymore. One day, I didn’t want to identify with those lyrics anymore. And since that day, it’s not my song anymore.
It was the day that a friend sent me another song… And something shifted internally. And very soon after, things started to shift externally.
One day a friend sent me the song ‘Undo’ by Björk. He sent it via a Spotify link in our WhatsApp conversation. He didn’t text me anything else. I still have no idea why he send me that song. And now, as I’m writing this, I realize that I have never asked him.
It was gift from the divine. The song came at exactly the right moment. I was in an existential crisis. He sent me that song while I was laying on my living room floor in fetus position, crying. And for those first thirty years of my life, the only thing that I had relied on, to carry me through crisis, was my Capricorn Sun and Aquarius Moon (detach from your emotions and ‘just go on’). I pressed play. And there was Venus in Pisces. I dissolved.
I dissolved. I surrendered. And I understood that ‘it was warmer now’.
I finally connected to healthy aspects of my Venus in Pisces (because up until then, my chart ruler was completely lost at ruling me. And often she still is… but I forgive her and I’m able find beauty in it).
There was no stopping of the process. It was undoing, and more undoing, and more undoing. No more Capricorn trying and trying. But Pisces undoing and surrendering.
Dear B, thank you for sending the song. Three and a half years later I’m still so grateful for that divine gift. It was the smallest act on your part, but it was the biggest gift to me. My life became a Piscean mess after you send me that song. My Capricornian structures fell apart. I started swimming in the ocean. Our conversations on Advaita Vedanta, and this ocean that is life, are a forever guide in dark days. Whenever I’m scared and try to hold on where I can’t hold on, I listen to Undo. And on most other days, I listen to Erykah Badu’s ‘Didn’t Cha Know’; because this Pisces Soul Queen also has the gift of telling me that it is okay to feel a little lost at times and to have trust in life itself.
I now know the beauty of my Venus in Pisces placement. Placed in the 11th house it calls me to share my creativity with the human collective; without this placement, there wouldn’t be a website or instagram account. My Venus in Pisces placement makes me compassionate and emphatic, which also helps me in my work. I love my Venus in Pisces especially because I seek and I see beauty in everything and everyone. I love my Venus in Pisces also because it takes the hard edges of my Saturn ruled placements (I can have a hard exterior, but I’m actually quite a sensitive person). I love my Venus in Pisces because it helps me to forgive. I’m a stubborn person with strong principles, but in the end… I never stop loving people even if they’ve hurt me a thousand times. I always forgive. Which is at the same time the thing that is so difficult about this placement, I really had to learn to not always give a second (third, or the hundredth) chance. But at the same time, I’m happy to be a person that offers many chances. Because being human is fucking difficult and we all mess up. But yeah, it’s too easy for me to give myself away. I both struggle with that and I also love it. Venus in Pisces does have the dark side of secretly loving the pain of self-abandonment. It can be a real struggle to have Venus in Pisces, in combination with strong Capricorn in a chart. Or my readers who have Venus in Pisces with strong Aries or strong Leo will recognize the same. Because Capricorn, Aries and Leo don’t like to lose control at all. And Venus in Pisces does her “best” work, when she gives her control away. (Note the quotation marks please.) And that probably is, because love isn’t about control. And it probably is, because intimacy means losing control. One needs to give up control, in order to be truly intimate. One needs to give up control, in order to surrender. In order to undo. And that scared the shit out of this Capricorn lady the first thirty years or her life. Until she learned… until I finally learned… that being in control doesn’t equal being happy.
I thank my Capricorn Sun for carrying me through the hardest shit I’ve experienced in my life. I thank my Venus in Pisces for helping me to undo, when it finally felt save enough to do so, when I finally had trust enough to do so.